I will love you the length of eternity means that I will never stop loving you.
Can't you see ? They're trying to impress me but I don't see them.
Can't you feel ? You're the one and the only <3
She's such a great actress that nobody could reveal her fake smile,
Everyday she stands in front of her mirror and design a new smile,
Everyday she wears a smile in addition to her best clothes, puts make up,
Everyday she tries to be perfect as if nothing's missing,
Everyday she cheats herself,
Everyday she lies "I'm okay",
Everyday she starts her day with hope !
Everyday his love refreshes in her heart as it's the first day !
Everyday she prays with his name <3
Everyday she stands in front of her mirror and design a new smile,
Everyday she wears a smile in addition to her best clothes, puts make up,
Everyday she tries to be perfect as if nothing's missing,
Everyday she cheats herself,
Everyday she lies "I'm okay",
Everyday she starts her day with hope !
Everyday his love refreshes in her heart as it's the first day !
Everyday she prays with his name <3
Wanna go ? without goodbye ? Ok.
Hug me and if you could stop; just leave
If you couldn't; enough stubbornness !
Because I haven't dreamed of something better
Because you just came out of the most beautiful dreams
Because I loved me when I'm with you
Because your presence makes me feel alive
Because you're all what I want
Because you're my angel
Because I feel safe beside you
Because I belong to you
Because I'm blinded by your sight
Because I saw sweetest love story in your eyes
Because I love when you look through me
Because your voice is my sweet melody
Because you gave me the best of everything
Because I enjoy your companion
Because I'm incomplete without you
Because you exerted great effort to make me happy
Because I want to make you happy
Because you know I can make you happy
Because I prefer to die than to be with someone else
Because nobody is allowed to take your place
Because you just came out of the most beautiful dreams
Because I loved me when I'm with you
Because your presence makes me feel alive
Because you're all what I want
Because you're my angel
Because I feel safe beside you
Because I belong to you
Because I'm blinded by your sight
Because I saw sweetest love story in your eyes
Because I love when you look through me
Because your voice is my sweet melody
Because you gave me the best of everything
Because I enjoy your companion
Because I'm incomplete without you
Because you exerted great effort to make me happy
Because I want to make you happy
Because you know I can make you happy
Because I prefer to die than to be with someone else
Because nobody is allowed to take your place
Let's start from the very beginning ..
Once upon a time it was known that actions speak louder than words,
Specifically at this era; I got "I Love You" signal, by actions I heard it without words.
I believed it was true, I appreciated it and once I fell in his love too !
A promise of never changing was made, unfortunately it's been crushed.
I was given the most great and amazing everything ! Love, Care, Passion. unfortunately I've been robbed of everything !
Everything has turned from blue to yellow .. sounds of owls surrounded me .. laughter left me for ever !
When I remember him, a sudden smile was drawn on my face, Now a river of tears fall of my eyes ! that's why I don't want to remember him anymore ! I hate everybody's asking what's wrong and I'm saying nothing !
HOW COULD YOU TURN TO BE THAT PERSON ?!
I loved him more than I thought I may love anybody, I wanted him like never I thought I'd want anybody !
Knowing that I'm the same for him as he's for me made me feel comfortable and safe and never think about the future or what's in it ..
Fearing that he'd leave anytime drove me mad, made me a new person ! afraid of everything, waiting for any problem to appear !!
Hearing I'm leaving and I don't want you anymore crushed my soul damaged my life .. KILLED me inside !
Even if I know you didn't mean it, even if I know you want me just as I want you, even if anything; you broke me !
I can't let myself loves you anymore ! I can't let me wants you anymore ! I can't allow me misses you anymore !
I can't prevent myself from loving, missing or wanting you !!!
It's ok anyway we've reached a point with no back, I'll keep everything inside and wish if I could meet you once by chance ! I'll stay loving you as I used to but without telling you !
I'll never belong to anybody's else ! I'm yours and will always be !
Because I Love YOU more than you could imagine I can't be someone's else but YOU !!
Once upon a time it was known that actions speak louder than words,
Specifically at this era; I got "I Love You" signal, by actions I heard it without words.
I believed it was true, I appreciated it and once I fell in his love too !
A promise of never changing was made, unfortunately it's been crushed.
I was given the most great and amazing everything ! Love, Care, Passion. unfortunately I've been robbed of everything !
Everything has turned from blue to yellow .. sounds of owls surrounded me .. laughter left me for ever !
When I remember him, a sudden smile was drawn on my face, Now a river of tears fall of my eyes ! that's why I don't want to remember him anymore ! I hate everybody's asking what's wrong and I'm saying nothing !
HOW COULD YOU TURN TO BE THAT PERSON ?!
I loved him more than I thought I may love anybody, I wanted him like never I thought I'd want anybody !
Knowing that I'm the same for him as he's for me made me feel comfortable and safe and never think about the future or what's in it ..
Fearing that he'd leave anytime drove me mad, made me a new person ! afraid of everything, waiting for any problem to appear !!
Hearing I'm leaving and I don't want you anymore crushed my soul damaged my life .. KILLED me inside !
Even if I know you didn't mean it, even if I know you want me just as I want you, even if anything; you broke me !
I can't let myself loves you anymore ! I can't let me wants you anymore ! I can't allow me misses you anymore !
I can't prevent myself from loving, missing or wanting you !!!
It's ok anyway we've reached a point with no back, I'll keep everything inside and wish if I could meet you once by chance ! I'll stay loving you as I used to but without telling you !
I'll never belong to anybody's else ! I'm yours and will always be !
Because I Love YOU more than you could imagine I can't be someone's else but YOU !!
Have you ever felt like there's a volcano erupting inside and you're just afraid of it's outbreak ?!
because its rushing will hurt someone !!
and will hurt yourself first !! because you're pretending all the time that it's just an extinct volcano !!
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Don't panic ! keep numbing the pain
you chose to stay all the way in pain
Don't complain ! it's all about you
your decision
your actions
your destination ..
Don't cry or shade a city of sorrows
because it will collapse on your head !
Smile like the world is so bright
don't notice the dark part
it's you how darkened it
blaming it now ? unfair !!
it's you who said "I'm strong enough" !
BULLSHIT
neither you're strong nor you can handle it by anyway
POOR you, left without options !
strong ? deal with that
accept it
strong haha !!!
and there's nothing left to be said
or anything to be done
all is gone
and won't be back
and even if
it will never be the same
it will never be the same
because its rushing will hurt someone !!
and will hurt yourself first !! because you're pretending all the time that it's just an extinct volcano !!
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Don't panic ! keep numbing the pain
you chose to stay all the way in pain
Don't complain ! it's all about you
your decision
your actions
your destination ..
Don't cry or shade a city of sorrows
because it will collapse on your head !
Smile like the world is so bright
don't notice the dark part
it's you how darkened it
blaming it now ? unfair !!
it's you who said "I'm strong enough" !
BULLSHIT
neither you're strong nor you can handle it by anyway
POOR you, left without options !
strong ? deal with that
accept it
strong haha !!!
and there's nothing left to be said
or anything to be done
all is gone
and won't be back
and even if
it will never be the same
it will never be the same
I've never hated a word like this "Expectations" !
for the gap it makes
for the distance it separates
for the echo it plays in my ears
for every single moment I made one !
for the feeling of paralysed it brings to me !
why do I keep on expecting what I need from people ?
should they have manual guide for me ?
should they know exactly what I want and do it for me ?
should they be there for me every time ?
should I need them all the time ?
should they be my only power ?
could this be considered as a point of weakness ?
could that independent girl turns to be completely dependent on another someone ?!
it doesn't work with me
nothing works with me
no mental conversations
no heart beats
then what ?
nothing
just ummm just what ?
think or feel ?
think about what ?
think about what annoys you ?
or about what you wish ?
feel what ?
love and care ?
or exactly what you need whenever you want ?!!
selfishness
another kind of it ..
may be
but when you somebody gets you used to something then stop, it hurts
still selfishness ?
I don't know
I'm totally confused
damn dreams when they crush into your reality
damn when they came with all your fears
damn you when you can't stand up and face them
damn the unknown
enough ?
no,
damn the exact feeling of I need you can you hear me !
damn me when I expect you to understand my silence !
damn you when think that I'm in trouble and I need your help !
hell no, I need your care !
complicated along the way
will never be understood
like a page on a book
will never be read
and even if
translation is not available
hardest point when it's okay pass it
and it gets repeated
only then
it can't be forgotten
the most hardest point
when it's all my fault
when you admit it !
yes, because I love you most I expect everything !
yes, I will never stop expectations even if you never stop frustration !
yes, I'm afraid of everything and the more I love you, the more I fear !
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