World Of Dreams: 2012

I will love you the length of eternity means that I will never stop loving you.

Can't you see ? They're trying to impress me but I don't see them.

Can't you feel ? You're the one and the only <3

She's such a great actress that nobody could reveal her fake smile,
Everyday she stands in front of her mirror and design a new smile,
Everyday she wears a smile in addition to her best clothes, puts make up,
Everyday she tries to be perfect as if nothing's missing,
Everyday she cheats herself,
Everyday she lies "I'm okay",
Everyday she starts her day with hope !
Everyday his love refreshes in her heart as it's the first day !
Everyday she prays with his name <3

Wanna go ? without goodbye ? Ok.

Hug me and if you could stop; just leave

If you couldn't; enough stubbornness !

Uncountable Reasons

Because I haven't dreamed of something better
Because you just came out of the most beautiful dreams
Because I loved me when I'm with you
Because your presence makes me feel alive
Because you're all what I want
Because you're my angel
Because I feel safe beside you
Because I belong to you
Because I'm blinded by your sight
Because I saw sweetest love story in your eyes
Because I love when you look through me
Because your voice is my sweet melody
Because you gave me the best of everything
Because I enjoy your companion
Because I'm incomplete without you
Because you exerted great effort to make me happy
Because I want to make you happy
Because you know I can make you happy
Because I prefer to die than to be with someone else
Because nobody is allowed to take your place

The End

Let's start from the very beginning ..
Once upon a time it was known that actions speak louder than words,
Specifically at this era; I got "I Love You" signal, by actions I heard it without words.
I believed it was true, I appreciated it and once I fell in his love too !
A promise of never changing was made, unfortunately it's been crushed.
I was given the most great and amazing everything ! Love, Care, Passion. unfortunately I've been robbed of everything !
Everything has turned from blue to yellow .. sounds of owls surrounded me .. laughter left me for ever !
When I remember him, a sudden smile was drawn on my face, Now a river of tears fall of my eyes ! that's why I don't want to remember him anymore ! I hate everybody's asking what's wrong and I'm saying nothing !
HOW COULD YOU TURN TO BE THAT PERSON ?!
I loved him more than I thought I may love anybody, I wanted him like never I thought I'd want anybody !
Knowing that I'm the same for him as he's for me made me feel comfortable and safe and never think about the future or what's in it ..
Fearing that he'd leave anytime drove me mad, made me a new person ! afraid of everything, waiting for any problem to appear !!
Hearing I'm leaving and I don't want you anymore crushed my soul damaged my life .. KILLED me inside !
Even if I know you didn't mean it, even if I know you want me just as I want you, even if anything; you broke me !
I can't let myself loves you anymore ! I can't let me wants you anymore ! I can't allow me misses you anymore !
I can't prevent myself from loving, missing or wanting you !!!
It's ok anyway we've reached a point with no back, I'll keep everything inside and wish if I could meet you once by chance ! I'll stay loving you as I used to but without telling you !
I'll never belong to anybody's else ! I'm yours and will always be !
Because I Love YOU more than you could imagine I can't be someone's else but YOU !!

True Story !

Have you ever felt like there's a volcano erupting inside and you're just afraid of it's outbreak ?!
because its rushing will hurt someone !!
and will hurt yourself first !! because you're pretending all the time that it's just an extinct volcano !!

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Don't panic ! keep numbing the pain
you chose to stay all the way in pain

Don't complain ! it's all about you
your decision
your actions
your destination ..

Don't cry or shade a city of sorrows
because it will collapse on your head !

Smile like the world is so bright
don't notice the dark part
it's you how darkened it
blaming it now ? unfair !!
it's you who said "I'm strong enough" !
BULLSHIT
neither you're strong nor you can handle it by anyway

POOR you, left without options !
strong ? deal with that
accept it
strong haha !!!
and there's nothing left to be said
or anything to be done
all is gone
and won't be back
and even if
it will never be the same
it will never be the same

Expectations !

I've never hated a word like this "Expectations" !

for the gap it makes

for the distance it separates

for the echo it plays in my ears

for every single moment I made one !

for the feeling of paralysed it brings to me !

why do I keep on expecting what I need from people ?

should they have manual guide for me ?

should they know exactly what I want and do it for me ?

should they be there for me every time ?

should I need them all the time ?

should they be my only power ?

could this be considered as a point of weakness ?

could that independent girl turns to be completely dependent on another someone ?!

it doesn't work with me

nothing works with me

no mental conversations

no heart beats

then what ?

nothing

just ummm just what ?

think or feel ?

think about what ?

think about what annoys you ?

or about what you wish ?

feel what ?

love and care ?

or exactly what you need whenever you want ?!!

selfishness

another kind of it ..

may be

but when you somebody gets you used to something then stop, it hurts

still selfishness ?

I don't know

I'm totally confused

damn dreams when they crush into your reality

damn when they came with all your fears

damn you when you can't stand up and face them

damn the unknown

enough ?

no,

damn the exact feeling of I need you can you hear me !

damn me when I expect you to understand my silence !

damn you when think that I'm in trouble and I need your help !

hell no, I need your care !

complicated along the way

will never be understood

like a page on a book

will never be read

and even if

translation is not available

hardest point when it's okay pass it

and it gets repeated

only then

it can't be forgotten

the most hardest point

when it's all my fault

when you admit it !

yes, because I love you most I expect everything !

yes, I will never stop expectations even if you never stop frustration !

yes, I'm afraid of everything and the more I love you, the more I fear !

مَتىْ ♥

مَتىْ يسمح ليَّ القدَر بأن أَركض سريعاً وأحتضنك

مَتىْ أستطيع البقاء معك دون أنّ ألتزم بوقتٍ مُحدد

مَتىْ أعيش بقربك يومي بأكمله ؛ ♥

مَتىْ أُصبح ملكاً لكَ وَحدك

لا أحد يتطفل علينا .. لا أحد يسرقنا منا !

لا أحد يملئُنا سوانا . . .

مَتىْ تتحقق أحلامنا الورديه ♥

Your voice is just teaching me sweet lessons in tenderness !

And your love can't be hidden ..

Do you know why Boys are mean't to be taller than girls?

So that they can Hug their girl completely.

But do you know why Girls are mean't to be less taller than boys?

So that by the time the boys hug them, they can easily hear the heart that keeps on beating because of them ♥

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Compass Of Happiness

And whenever I ask "happiness compass" for the way, It points to YOU !

I don't have reasons for loving YOU, only YOU are my reasons

I'm feeling special because of YOU, gifted because of YOU

only YOU bring out the best of me

your presence in my life just made it tasty

that's why I've to spend my lifetime thanking YOU

Refresh ♥

Unspoken

In this word everything's changeable, nothing's fixed

constants don't play a role except in mathematical relations

yesterday, I wasn't afraid, I was missing that feeling and it was so good

yesterday, feeling safe was because of you ! beside me, I was feeling you ..

yesterday, I was inspired by you ! you showed me the way ..

yesterday, my dreams were amazing

yesterday, everything sounds perfect

yesterday, I let you down ,, and I don't know if it's the reason for today's sufferings or not !

today, I'm feeling lost, afraid of the upcoming unknown

today, your care is lessened, yourself is different

today, words are escaping from my mind

today, my dreams are anxious

today, everything sounds misty

between yesterday and today, ups and downs .. conflicts all inside of me !

but despite all, a young flower is growing inside and needs a shelter ..

this flower is your love so please protect her !

You've touched my heart in a special way ♥

want to cry out loud

no reasons

no one hears

why this crowd

would you please leave me alone

i wanna be on my own

nobody understands

so do i

how could they do

while i do not too

what's wrong with my damn mind

why is it working that much

what's wrong with my damn heart

why is it beating that much

i'm scattered

and i don't know why

is there a cure ?

hell thanks keep it to yourself

i need nothing

i need myself back

Once I had a dream; it was all about me walking under the rains beside someone I don't know wearing black coat and all I could see was his shoulder no more ..

honestly on that time I had no idea who's this anonymous or who he is going to be ! but short time later; I wished him to be you !

today, my dream come true and that someone turns to be you !!

now I dare to dream ,, now I dare to dream ..

Confused that million of thoughts translated to million of words are rushing through my head
thinking about the most suitable words that you deserve but all went in vain !
because there're no words I've explored up till now are enough for you !
honestly, you're the best thing that happened to me ..
I started counting my age since I met you ..
you occupied my mind in addition to my heart ..
you're the only beloved basis that my day goes around ..
need explanation ?
I wake up to be with you and sleep to wake up again just for you !
love you the length of eternity ..
sweetheart, happy valentine's day !

Happy !

"Why can't you see how perfectly happy I am?" Bella Swan

only HIM can change my mood .. only HIM can raise me from the bottom to the sky !

pic by : merve-s

Undefined

Between our desires and fate there'is a thin line, we don't see it and even when we do; it's time for pretending not ..
I can't see it and I wish it doesn't exist ! just hoping for an extraordinary power and will those make desire = fate ..
It's not that difficult, isn't it ? I'm afraid of being the only one who sees it easy issue, afraid because of my extra positive charges, afraid of not finding them in you, afraid of not being with you !

Once upon a time ..

How did you do that ?

unlocked all the doors,

melt all the ices,

reached the forbidden area,

stole my heart ..

How did you do that ?

i can see nobody but you,

care only for you,

wish only you,

wait only for you,

love you ..

magical you, i want to thank you

thank you for being with me

thank you for drawing a daily smile on my face

thank you for being yourself

thank you for your care

thank you for the beautiful world you let me in

thank you for removing my fears

thank you for your love

thank you for being my MAN ♥

Art Of Missing

teach me the art of missing

it's not just "i miss you"

it's i'm feeling lonely

it's i'm not okay

it's i'm scared

it's i'm missing everything

it's where're you

it's dull without you

it's i'm not alive

it's i love you more !

Pic by : Midnight

And I adore every single song that reminds me of YOU

or suggested by YOU

or even liked by YOU

guess why ?! simply because I adore YOU

Beyond Control

وشَآَآء الْهَوَى

ان اعْشَق رَجــلَا..يَاخَذْنّى لـ مُنْتَهـــى الْعِشْق

يجْتآَآُآح كُل نَبضاات قَلْبِى

يَأَثَرُوْهَا

وَكُلَّمَا حُاوَلْت ان اهْرُب مِن هَوَاه

... ... اعَادْنّى

لَه " ضِحْكَه تَنَسِيْنِي الْدُّنْيَاا وَمَن فِيْهَا ..! و ., لَه أُسْلُوْب يُضَيْعني بــ " تَفاصِيلِه "

يُحْيِي رُوْحِي بِحُبِّه

يَزِيدَنِي غُرُوْرا .....

حُبا .... ♥

جُنُوْنا .. ♥

عِشْقا. .♥

أُنُوْثَة .. ♥

And that is my MAN ♥♥

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Used to love this song, but feeling it is much more amazing <3

Coldness Of Winter

Yes, I'm feeling cold but this coldness of my body will only end up in your arms

enough for me now that my heart is warm

Pic by : Nadya Kulikova

Day n Night

How could I start my day without your "good morning"

Or sleep without your "good night"

Because you're my everything my day and night cannot go without you !

I Like Everyone,, But I Love Only One..
I Live For Everyone,, But I Breathe For Only One..
I Talk To Everyone,, But I Share Everything With Only One..
I Smile With Everyone,, But My Smile Is For Only One..
I Am Friends With Everyone,, But I Belong To Only One..

And That ''ONE'' Is Only"YOU"

Untitled Thoughts

You and me, summarized all the love stories in one novel; begins with you love ends with my passion
Like a baby you treat me, Like a baby I annoy you
Whoever said that distance is an obstacle; didn't know how to love
Protected, Safe, Secure .. thanks for introducing these words to my world ! thanks for making them meaningful
And even our silence has its own melody .. Our melody; the One no body else can hear
I adore those moments when I'm silently telling you everything
In my imagination, already we're together .. already I'm where I belong
It's just amazing when someone worries about yourself more than you do
You don't know how much they mean to you unless you start thinking what if you lost them
When I smile for no reason they think I'm gone mad ! actually you've passed through my mind
And whenever I remember you my heart gets warm

Crossroads

my mind is two way street, one goes right and the other goes left ..

and here i'm standing at the crossroads don't know which to take ..

let me select path A :

i will be where i want but not sure about the consequences

i will be happy

i will be selfish

path B :
i will be where i'm supposed to be
i will be less happier
i won't be selfish

i may be unfair and losing other factors, but i ain't be superhero ..